I’ve known this about myself for a long time. I adore children and I love being a mother, but I’m really not interested in sex. This has freed me in so many ways.
I no longer feel the need to be sexually attractive. I can wear my hear the way I think is fun, without the burden of considering if a guy will think I’m “hot”. I tend to Snapchat without makeup, because I can just be myself and not worry what I look like.
I can be my bright, nerdy, inquisitive, assertive, challenging, goofy SELF, and not have my anxiety (which is still very much there) tie me up in knots about being sexually rejected in some way. I don’t care.
The fact that I struggle so much with anxiety and yet don’t actually care about something is incredibly freeing in itself.
I’ve been involved with several Christian sects in my lifetime. Church was very important to me, growing up. I’ve never been able to reconcile this single fact: the Coming of Jesus was an end to the old laws, right?
Then why, oh why, do Christians follow, study, and quote Abrahamic Law from the Old Testament?
This has never made a lick of sense to me. If you’re a Christian, you would study, follow, and rely upon, the teachings of Jesus as expressed in the New Testament. Period.